This fucking pain. I was over this god forsaken fucking pain. I wasn’t healing, I was almost healed. I was feeling light, the hollow of my chest had filled with helium, I was floating again instead of dragging my sorry arse around. I was out of my cage and living free again.
Them my best friend died. The dog who gave me everything. He wasn’t even three, he didn’t deserve it after all he gave me. After where he dragged me from. He healed me and I couldn’t pay him back. I just had to let him go. That’s all I could do for this beautiful animal who saved my life.
He was there every time living wasn’t worth it anymore.
Every time someone who was meant to love me let me down.
Every time I couldn’t get up, he was with me. He never let me down and I put him down. His body failed him but he never failed me. He loved me when I didn’t even like myself and he’s gone.
I miss him so much. No one has left a hole like this before. I’m sobbing so hard, I’m so sorry Flynn. You never doubted me, and no one could doubt your love for me.
I love you.
I’m so sorry.